Someone asked me what’s wrong and I was going to use this as an outline for a blog entry, but I don’t have that kind of time. The title means all of these issues are axes dangling over my head waiting to fall. Some alternate titles might include “Why I can’t just get over it”, “Why I look tired all the time”, “AAAAAA!!! AAAAAA!!!”.
- Divorce
- We are separated and I have no idea what comes next.
- Harvey and my stress
- Roof - leaks
- Car - went through some high water
- I wake at night in a sweat if I hear rain.
- I had no real destruction and everyone else is doing a better job of handling this.
- Harvey and my friend’s stress
- My best friend had his house flooded.
- Other friends had their houses flooded.
- House (other than Harvey)
- Floors need replacing
- Needs paint inside and out
- Could use some landscaping
- The siding on the back of the house needs some repairs.
- There is some water damage from the last hurricane at the back door.
- May have to sell in the divorce anyway
- Taxes are through the roof.
- We have a car dump next door.
- Ants!
- My father’s health (no details)
- My mother’s health (no details)
- My health
- My balance is getting to the point I have a hard time walking.
- I have headaches and I think it is related to something going on with my balance.
- I have a pain in my gut that might be blader infection, kidney stone.
- I have nightmares of having intestinal parasites crawling through my flesh and no way to prove to myself that they do not exist.
- I just don’t have time to fight the insurance to get fixed. That is a full time job.
- Work
- 400,000 bosses (everyone at the company) You remember that scene in Office Space where the guy complains about his eight bosses giving him crap about a form?
- One more fix that everyone wants to get in before I can do my job.
- Unpredictable hours
- Multitasking and the fact that I can’t do it. People at work say multitasking is bad and then put you in a situation where you can’t succeed without it.
- Having to depend on others is stressful.
- No one wants to commit to a decision.
- I found a desk that works for me and I live in fear that they will move me again “... to disrupt people’s comfort zones.” Because God knows finding what works for you and sticking with it is a lousy way of not hitting the same problems over and over again.
- Overcommunication
- 9 million ways of talking and no one uses them.
- 9 million ways of talking and I can’t find the information I need.
- 9 million ways of talking and I don’t want to talk to anyone.
- 9 million ways of talking and I only hear static when I scream.
- No outlet and a million inlets leads to Kelly being an asshole.
Honestly, I’m afraid to start venting because I may not be able to stop.
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5 comments:
Hey, I can't help with all (or even most) of this, but - try one of those one-on-ones for the Harvey relief. It's draining even if *absolutely nothing* happened to you - and it wasn't nothing for you. You're already stress, and this is another BIG stressor. It's not a bad thing if it's too much, and the Man (at least theoretically) realizes this.
For work: fight back on office moves. Several people have. It doesn't have to be a hard fight, just say you don't want to move. It's not like we're hurting for space. I don't think that disrupting comfort zones is what they're after right now.
I don't know about a bunch of the other stuff, but even getting one thing done helps.
The last comment on this blog was in 2014.
I was in that meeting for Harvey victims when I typed this up. It kind of helped.
I entered a comment before and don't know where it went. Basically, if you want some advice regarding the first bullet, I have some experience there. We can go to lunch sometime and talk if you like.
That first week after Harvey I was an emotional wreck, and I had no damage at all, neither did any of my family. I'm feeling for everyone else and feeling guilty that I even feel bad at all. Survivor's guilt is real.
^ -David Drinnan
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